i am a negative creep

this may sound cheesy, but you can kiss my lily white:

i cannot believe kurt cobain would've been forty. forty? as in, forty?

really?

how old does that make me?

...

shit.

well, what can be said about this?

for me, a lot. it is a big deal. as silly as this may read: i learned how to play guitar because of nirvana. fourteen & picking up a friend's accoustic to hammer-mimic smells like teen spirit & a bit of bleach.

it was sonically different from anything i had heard - and before you say anything, i simultaneously listened to: en vogue, judas priest, kiss, alice cooper, jesus christ superstar & nwa - so, i wasn't totally in the oft imagined "midwest-dark".

it changed things. everywhere.

anyways, i suppose i should get back to the point - kurt cobain being forty. it is hard to imagine what would have happened to him otherwise. what would have happened to the band? their sound? would they have had to get piercings like metallica? or, would they have self-altered as frequently as wire?

what if?

whatever.

nevermind.